Everyone has been there, no matter what point of their lives they currently find themselves at, or for what reason. We’ve all struggled or still struggle daily, with things we just need to deal with and are outside of our control. Being pregnant and creating life has both been the most wonderful gift that ever happened to me, but also the most challenging. For the longest time I wondered if I’d ever be able to do this, want to go through it or if there would ever be a perfect time.
I did everything “right” in my book: got a great education, a dream job, traveled the world, met the most wonderful man, and lived what I thought was a pretty satisfying life. So what else did I need? Did I really need a baby, and if so, when would it be the best time to do this? I started questioning myself: in today’s world, do I really need to have a baby, am I going to be able to raise him/her well? Am I built for this, and will I even be a good mom? All of these questions have been going in on my mind for years, not solely, but in the back of my head (some of which are still very much there today), and this, on a small scale has been an internal struggle.
Fast forward to today: After my father’s passing earlier this year (the most challenging year of my life so far), I realized there wasn’t a perfect time for anything at all. My dad loved life, and loved to live. He will be my forever reminder that life is precious, and it is given to us as a gift, but can also be taken away at the blink of an eye, so everyday we are here on this earth must be treated as such – a gift. With that realization I decided I just couldn’t plan everything, and that some things just need to happen for themselves. Sure you can make plans for yourself, meet goals and achieve them as I’ve been doing my whole entire life, but not absolutely everything. Some things just need to happen for themselves, naturally, so I decided to relax and do just that.
David Nail’s new album is just about that, and so inspiring. After his own struggle, along with his wife, to get pregnant, go through a healthy pregnancy and have 2 beautiful healthy babies, he created his new album: and his 4th MCA Nashville album, Fighter, has been so motivational to me. Fighter’s 11 tracks celebrates life’s victories, but also exposing the knock-downs that comes along with it. We are all fighters deep inside, and at some point that fighting power comes out and we surprise ourselves.
The power of music definitely moves us, and I’m so glad I could relate to his music. Check out David and Catherine Nail’s story for inspiration.
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Everything happens for a reason, (this is true, despite the cliche), and we all struggle, and will constantly struggle on and off, through life. I know it’s only the beginning of my journey as a mother fighter, and being pregnant has already modified so much of me. It’s been a challenge both physically and mentally, but it’s how we all got here, via our mother’s struggles, and their mother’s, which is a phenomenal thing.
I feel blessed to have the opportunity to experience this, and to have the support to go through it. It is a struggle, but a wonderful one, that will leave me changed as a person, and want to be a better version of myself everyday, for the sake of someone else. I must say I have a different appreciation for all mothers, because it truly is something amazing what happens inside of us. I look forward to everyday, to the next change, to the next challenge. I know I need to go through it, and to get through it. We need to live the daily struggle, because it will only make us better versions of what we were yesterday, today.
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Xo, Ana
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I honestly think every mother and father to be goes through this struggle. I know i did. & having a child will change your lives but in the best ways. Its okay to be scared ir unsure or overwhelmed. It all be worth it in the end.
I know it….It will be amazing. Must keep the eye on the prize, and it’s not everyday that is bad. Most days are actually great, and I”m thankful!
You’re going to be such a wonderful mother Ana, you’ve already been a mentor to me whether you know it or not. You’re extremely inspiring, and you’ll teach your child your love of life. Baby Sandee couldn’t be luckier to have you and wine coach as parents.
Caroline that is so sweet!! I’m so thankful for your message. I will definitely try my very best with the baby, you know I will!
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